:l This has been a lovely week of friendship:
1. Question a friend on why she said something. Be told that since I ‘over think things’ and that she didn’t have to answer to me, I was dismissed. Awesome best friend.
2. Had a second person back up the first person and then try to pull the conversation away and make it all about skin gradient and not about the commentary the friend had made. Awesome. I can’t control the color of my skin and my racial background. Sweet. Even though I’m a mixture of PoC, it doesn’t matter. I’m not dark, thus I am ~white passing~, which had nothing to do with the topic at hand. Amazing.
3. Friend asks if I’m going to drive down. I’m honest and tell him the truth: I can’t drive down weekly. Unless someone helped me out, I just can’t afford it because I live on this magical thing called a budget. I don’t have fucking time to send my ass back home because people can’t handle me not being there for one weekend. Get told I was being ~subtle~ when I was clearly not trying to be. If I was being subtle I wouldn’t take an elephant gun to shoot a soda can.
Summary of this week: Don’t question people because they’ll dismiss you. Which they can go fuck themselves with because that’s fucked up, especially if you’re my best friend. You’ll have to deal with the back up person because the first person doesn’t want to take responsibility for their own actions. When that’s done, don’t bother being honest with someone because they think you just want to use them.